So I have to get us ready for hospital which means I have to start planning and I hate planning. So I have written a list of what we need to take it looks like were going on a vacation pj's, books, DVDs, pillow, blanket and everything else we need. Looking at the list we must be going for ages but it's only 2 nights. But they will be two long nights. The fear is the unknown. How will he go with the general? will there be any problems in surgery? will he wake up ok and not full of fear? Will he be ok with the leads and monitors? Will he still trust me after we do this? Will I be ok? Will I still breathe when he is in surgery? Will I cry when I see him? Will I be strong? Will I survive this? I am scared and this surgery is tiny compared to the one he is going to have. I have a list and that is supposed to make me feel prepared for this trip. I have organised the kids. I am organising my husband. Then I have to organise myself.
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